“Because I’m a Girl” (Heart Broken)

Have you ever felt of being dumped by the guy you love most? Or being in pain because of him? Well if you’ll ask me, yes I already felt that. It’s so painful than I thought it would be. Everything happened in my sophomore life.

“Not doing your projects again?” I asked Mark as I walked nearer his desk. “I don’t want to do it.. It’s just a waste of time,” he said leaning his chin on his desk. “Get a hold of yourself, lots,” I said as slapped his shoulder. I call him lots because of his curly hair. “But-But,” he said teary-eyed. “It’s really tiring even just thinking of it!” he shouted desperately. “Okay, I’ll try and make it for you,” I said cupping my cheeks. “Really?” he asked as he gets hold of my shoulder. He’s smiling like crazy. “Yeah~” I said looking at the opposite direction, annoyed. “You’re the best~” he said as he hugs me. “I’ll go play then,” he said happily then he left. “Idiot, why did you say that again?” I told myself staring at him. “You really do like him,” Rizza said as she sat beside me sipping some juice. “I don’t like him!” I denied as I stood up, blushing. “Oh! Look your face is sooo red…” she teased. “It’s not!” I denied again. “You’re not good at pretending, Aiv..” Rexa said as she and Kyle seated beside Rizza. “We’re your friends, you can trust us, okay?” she added while they were grinning. “Haa~ I really can’t lie to you guys..” I said as I sat down back to the chair in front of them. “I do like him,” I said nodding. “GOSH! This is so embarrassing~” I added covering my face. “Pfft,” they said then they burst out laughing. “I thought you’re a tomboy like me and Kyle~ so why did you fell in love with a guy~?” Rizza said in between laughs. “I thought you don’t know what love is..” Rexa said giggling. “I shouldn’t have told you,” I said frowning. “You’re just making fun of me~” I added with my blowfish face. “So…” they said as they stopped laughing. The atmosphere became serious again. “It’s already September..When did you start falling in love with him?” Kyle asked. “Last week, I guess,” I said while nodding. “L-L-Last week?!!” the three of them with their shocked looks. “Yeah” I said then the bell ranged. “It’s already dismissal time,” Rizza said as the four of us glanced outside. “We’ll talk about it tomorrow,” Rexa said as they stood up. “Yeah” Kyle added. “Better tell us every detail got it?” Rizza said. Then we went home.

“I can’t believe I’m going to tell them every bit of detail,” I told myself while walking in the hallway, nodding. Then suddenly I bumped into something or someone. “Sorry,” I said as I raised my head, while touching my forehead. “Oh! Pangit it’s you~” he said pointing me with my sudden annoyed look. “What a bad timing,” I mumbled as I walked passed him, annoyed. “Hey wait~” he said as he grabbed my wrist. “Eh?” I said as I turned to him. “Are you done with my project?” he asked. “Yeah” I said as I nodded. “Is that all?” I asked. “Are you mad?” he asked, confused. “Nope,” I said as I freed my wrist from his grip.”I’ll be going now,” I said as I left him. 


“This is so crazy,” I mumbled while panting. “Oh the victim is here,” a familiar voice said. “Victim?” I said as  I raised my head. “F-F-F4,” I added. “Remember every bit of detail,” they said glaring at me. “I got it, ” I said as I walked passed them heading to my chair. “I’ll tell you EVERYTHING; you don’t have to make those scary faces,” I said as I placed my bag beside my chair then I sat down. “Then at lunch break,” Rexa said then they went back to their chairs. After that, the class had started. At lunch, of course I told them everything.  Then the bell rang for the next subject, Biology.

“The teacher told me that she have some urgent things to do so we’ll go and clean up our garden, leaders please take responsibility of your group mates,” our president said then everyone went out of the room with their group mates. Gladly, Rizza and Kyle are my group mates so we went out together. “At least, I’s Friday, so we can change our clothes,” Rizza said as we started cleaning our spot. “Yeah~” I said. It took us 2 hours to clean it properly. “I think, I’ll go change my clothes now, I’m so sweaty,” I said pulling the collar part of my shirt. “Yeah me too~” Rizza said raising her hand. “Be back okay?” our leader said as we left. “That was tiring,” I said wiping my sweats on my forehead. “Yeah,” Rizza said as we entered the classroom. Unexpectedly, he was there. He was just done changing his clothes. I walked to my desk and grab my shirt. Then I went in the restroom. After changing, I went out and saw him putting powder on his body then to his face. “You look like a girl,” I said as I stared at him while he was wiping his face. “Oh~ Mark you look like a white lady,” Rizza said as she pointed Mark’s face, giggling. “Eh~really?” he said. “Huh” I sighed. “On your cheeks,” I said then he started wiping his cheeks. “How about that?” he asked. “You still look like a ghost,” I teased. “Help me then,” he said, and then I walked near him. “Really, I’m not your maid or your mother,” I said. “Here,” he said as he handed over his shirt. I then grab it and started wiping his face. That was the first time I went that close to his face. “He’s so handsome,” I thought while wiping his face. “Th-That’s enough,” I said as I throw to him his shirt, hitting his face as I walked away, blushing.

Months had passed since that day. I then started ignoring and avoiding him, I already know he have someone he loves so it’s no use. It’s almost our Christmas Party, we started preparing for it. “Okay, so we’ll clean up the room today,” our advisor said as everyone started cleaning. At recess we rested for a while. Then suddenly he walked near me. “Yo,” he said as he sat on the chair in front of me. “What do you want?” I asked as I stared at the opposite direction while munching some chips. “Nothing,” he said as he tilted he’s head while folding his arms in front of him. “I just miss talking to you,” he added leaning on his folded arms. “Whatever,” I said as I stood up. “Hey wait,” he said as he grabbed my wrist. “I already knew about it..” he said nodding. “Eh?” I said as turned to him. “That you like me,” he added as he stared at me with his serious look. I was so speechless that time. Then slowly, he stood up and grabbed my back. He then hugged me so tight. “I’m sorry,” he said. “I can’t love you back, but we can still be friends right?” he added as tears started to fall on my cheeks. That’s how my love story ended. It was a heart broken.